Post by Suerte on Feb 28, 2008 22:10:25 GMT -5
I can feel it weighing down on me again. I can feel reality sitting on top of my chest. Pushing harder and harder against it, reminding me of everything I haven't said. I'm not sure If I can deal with the amounting ignorance. I'm sick and tired of this everyday neglect. I am here, I breathe, and feel, and live.
It isn't hard to give and effort. To try just a little bit. It isn't hard at all to just try something. I can deal with failure. But I can even that smallest bit of courtesy.
I've suddenly been lost in a drowning pool of ambiguity. I've never in my life been more obvious. How can't they see it? ow much more of this am I going to have to take of this? I'm in a continual beat down in the wake of there obliviousness. I'm stuck in the middle of this mess and I just can't seem to find a way to break out and get free.
I don't want to have to hear these off-hand insults and remain obscure. It's like lying everyday to everyone about my entire exsistance and mindset. It's the life that I want to live. I want to be open and honest, and reveal the little peice of me lost in this crowd of society. But this weight on my chest holds me down and forces me back into my caged and restricted life.
I can feel there eyes and there dissaproval, and it's just to much for me to handle right now. I can't deal with the fact that I'd be disowned. At least not the way I normally talk about it. A snark thing to add in, keeping it light, to keep the darkness inside. This is harder than I ever thought it was going to be...
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The mind has cracked enough for a glimpse. Good luck getting back out. -|Suerte|-
It isn't hard to give and effort. To try just a little bit. It isn't hard at all to just try something. I can deal with failure. But I can even that smallest bit of courtesy.
I've suddenly been lost in a drowning pool of ambiguity. I've never in my life been more obvious. How can't they see it? ow much more of this am I going to have to take of this? I'm in a continual beat down in the wake of there obliviousness. I'm stuck in the middle of this mess and I just can't seem to find a way to break out and get free.
I don't want to have to hear these off-hand insults and remain obscure. It's like lying everyday to everyone about my entire exsistance and mindset. It's the life that I want to live. I want to be open and honest, and reveal the little peice of me lost in this crowd of society. But this weight on my chest holds me down and forces me back into my caged and restricted life.
I can feel there eyes and there dissaproval, and it's just to much for me to handle right now. I can't deal with the fact that I'd be disowned. At least not the way I normally talk about it. A snark thing to add in, keeping it light, to keep the darkness inside. This is harder than I ever thought it was going to be...
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The mind has cracked enough for a glimpse. Good luck getting back out. -|Suerte|-
